Stress ke ?

Hello hello...
I couldn't sleep last night. There's too much going on in my mind. Masuk bilik awal tapi berjam-jam bergolek-golek atas katil sambil buat plan dalam kepala otak (ke itu berangan namanya?).
Golek kiri...grab my BB pastu tengok newsfeeds...nothing special..letak kat tepi bantal. Then golek kanan..grab my BB again..check lagi..walhal belum sampai seminit pun masa saya check tadi..HUH!.. Tension!

Sementelah pulak saya ni bukan pun 'HOTSTUFF' (kata bebudak sekarang)..kalau tulis something kat wall pun belum tentu ada respond...Lain la mereka-mereka yang 'fofular' dalam FB tu..tulis 'Grrrrrrrrr' pun bukan main ramai yang 'Like'...comment jangan ceritalah..macam berbalas pantun pulak..Hehe..(i'm not jealous ye.)

My BIG day is coming very soon...another 4 month of waiting... I'm not just 'waiting'..i'm 'doing something' too (or i'm supposed to do something?)..But where should i start? What come first? Alhamdulillah the venue dah confirm. Now boleh print invitations..Kerja kahwin bukan mudah wehhhhhh..Konon nak handle sendiri.. Takde maknanye! The list too long!!

Saya takut terlepas pandang. Kadang-kadang benda kecil pun boleh jadi masalah. This is my second marriage and i wanted it to be special as it's Malcolm's first (the one and only katanya..). Saya nak special bukan hanya untuk saya dan Malcolm..tapi juga untuk anak-anak dan family saya.
I wanted to be involved in every little things on the wedding cause i want to remember EVERYTHING!! I barely remember anything about my first wedding reception (not only i don't want to remember but i just CAN'T remember anything about it...kecuali part adik lelaki saya - Iwan,melintas di hadapan pelamin ketika saya sedang bersanding dengan tangannya berlumuran darah - dia main mercun 'BOM' kat belakang rumah sebab majlis saya berlangsung pada hari raya ke3-tak lalu diam). Yang lain...saya tak ingat!

Patutlah mak ayah kita tak senang duduk bila anak-anak nak kawin..Mana nak cari katering,khemah,gift,kad jemputan,budget,transport,family yang datang nak bermalam di mana..bla..bla..bla.. The list doesn't stop there.. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!

I know everything going to be OK..but for now..i am actually worried. Yes i might be thinking too much but i sure myself that i am not going to go to bed and sleep like a baby for months coming. I know i must be organized and keep calm..but i'm worried of being 'too calm'.

                                                               *i hope*

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