People who don't know me sure wondering what i do for living?
I'm a fulltime busy (not really) housekeeper and a part-time singer(i think so)..I enjoy what i'm doing and loving every bits of it.
Remember i wrote about 'turning-point' on my second post? Well music kindda playing a big role in each of my turning-point in life.I left home to be a singer when i was 18..young and fearless..saya dibekalkan cuma RM10 dari Mama untuk mencuba nasib..Alhamdulillah..i've made it!
I'm not going to tell you about this turning-point (i'll do it maybe on next post)..i'm interested to share you the story that made a HUGE change in my life.
I was 31..2 kids at age 10 and 8.. miserable marriage..unhappy..no money..abusive husband mentally and fizikal ..I thought my life is OVER! I left home before when i was 18..i dont think much cause i was alone but this time..i have to think very very hard before i make any moves because of my 2 little kids.I need them but more important is that..THEY NEED ME!!
I'm a mother who talk about everything with their kids..saya share segala-galanya dengan anak-anak..sejak mereka kecil hingga kini.They know that i'm unhappy..they witness with their own eyes how their father treat me..Anak-anak saya sangat memahami..Biarpun ketika itu mereka masih kecil namun mereka faham yang saya terpaksa tinggalkan mereka di bawah jagaan Opah untuk mencari rezeki lebih buat kami.
At the time..i had stop singing for about 10 years..but i know i got the voice and i think i am very talented as well..So when my sister asked me if i can replace her to sing in Malacca (setelah berfikir panjang dan berbincang dengan anak-anak)..i say Yes!
Living in Malacca banyak mengajar saya tentang hidup.I start from bottom..from nothing.Met a lot of good people.Made friends with people from different professions and life-style.I enjoyed it and i managed to give my kids a better living.
I got many interesting story about Malacca..saya akan selang selikan dengan cerita-cerita lain Insyaallah. Melaka benar-benar meninggalkan kenangan terindah dalam hidup saya. Di Melaka,saya mulakan semula minat saya terhadap muzik.Di Melaka, saya ditemukan dengan LELAKI yang sanggup bersemuka dengan lelaki yang telah me'lumpuh'kan hidup saya..bukan saja bersemuka namun he was man enough to tell my husband that he has treated me WRONG!..All of my 12 years marriage..i pray for someone who can face my husband and tell him to STOP..I found this guy in Malacca.
Orang tua-tua ada berkata.."orang yang sabar ni..balasannya elok dikemudian hari"..Saya percaya kata-kata tu.Saya sangat sabar orangnya dan Alhamdulillah...berkat kesabaran saya..saya ditemukan dengan insan yang saya angankan sejak saya kecil...dan saya jumpa dia di Melaka.
I would not have met him if i didn't say YES on the first place. I strongly think..that was my big turning-point in my life. Yes i agree..only you can change yourself. Only you can make yourself happy or unhappy. People can give you advise but they can't never be in your shoes.
There's a quote saying " you've made your bed..so lay on it!"..Just STOP RIGHT THERE!!..dont forget..u can always get new bed-sheets or even buy a new bed if the old one start hurting you. The choice is in your hand. Its ok to feel down but remember..you can always walk again..just make sure the next time you choose to walk...Walk with your chin up!
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